She said..

"I have dusted off the past.

 I don’t care about the future anymore. 

 And in this present moment there is absolute nothingness.

 This can’t be Nirvana. I am guessing that would have felt good.

 This blankness of purpose.

 The blandness of life.

 This state of ineffectuality.
 Oh dear, Oh dear, Oh dear.

 You see, I am also often out of words."