Till a fight do us apart..

Our madness, and the perpetuity of it.
The goofy dialogue. The dazed look.
The silly songs. The sexy (or not) moves.
Goofers, losers, winners and creators in and of this awesomeness.

Crankworthy and Cringeworthy
Oh pleases. Yeah rights!
The I cant do this anymores.
You dis me, I dis you. Y'all, we are even.

Back to scrubbing the potholed roads, helloing the bumper bumps,
Today we are on to hate the citys and fuck the roads.
The most innovative expletive winner is..Me. I take the blame.
 It has been a liberating experience. We should do this more often.

A movie I picked is horrible.
A cafe you picked turns out to be awesome?
Work the math. No sir, it doesn't sum up.
Alright, fine. Pick a fight. I'll just throw it, or an icecream, pillow, myself.

Ah normal day. Our normal day. Perfectly imperfect normal day.
And yes, Same-old same-old too.
Guess for us it wont get old. We'll find out.
Till the next fight, I love you sweety.

Yunhi kahin Bhatak rahe hain
Kuch hai jo milta nahi humein.
Shayad tum saath chalo,
To safar asan ho jaye..

Consumed.

Like a murderer's guilt,
Like a dirty secret,
Like a sore wound.

You linger on,
Inside of me,
All of me.

And I want to be,
need to be,
consumed by you.

Dhoop

Ek hawa ki chapet main
Kuch Ud sa gaya
Ek baarish ki lapet main
Kuch Beh sa gaya
Ek raat.

Chup chup ke, Darr darr ke,
Thodi si dhoop nikli to hai,
Kaafi arson baad.
Dheere Dheere chamchamati hui.
Rang fainkti hui.
Meethi si dhoop.
Kehti hai, abhi to aayi hu.
Thoda ruk ke jaaungi.

Goodnight

I finally see you dissappear into the fog.
It's a long cold night ahead.
But I am not afraid and now I know.

I circle my arms around.
Atleast I have myself,
The stars above and a ground below.

Kyu in tanha raahon pe apni khamoshi ke ilzaam lagate ho.
Ye Tanhanyi raahon main nahi, Khud main hai.

So long.

And my mind wanders back to you,
The same longing, the familiar pang,
Erase, Undo.
How? I wish I knew.

Exhausted, tired and spent.
I remind myself once again,
The storm's coming, but we have a moment,
I need that one last trifle of your scent.

I wish for you that I mean it.
As we repeat another Farewell, another Adieu.
So long.
So, long for me. As I will for you.

Sleep walking

Top most floor, third tower of a castle
A morning gasps, catching up with the mad bustle.
Mulishly, I turn the other side in my bed
Sigh! Another jet just test-flew on the top of my head.
Mercifully, a strange unearthly force gets me dressed
In my corporate suit - my weekday best.

I see other comrades rushing past
I run behind, I don’t want to be last.
A cold dim fortress awaits me here,
I serve my time counting each day, every year.
To think I had to face demons, walk bare feet on fire,
I was the lucky piece of furniture they decided to hire.

And seasons change under the skies,
Its long I lost track of when the sun sets or the stars rise.
My folks and I talk as such
We recognize voices, have forgotten the touch.
Then there is his pop-up or thought alert,
I like to dismiss these lest they hurt.

As fingers toil and brain nerves rot
Feels a battle is lost before I fought.
Then, like a ritual, comes that moment,
I want to break free, from the shackles, that very instant.
Before the impulse lasts any longer,
Mr. Greed and Ms. Comfort get bigger, and stronger.

I protest I don’t care, I am done.
Now I want to smell the flowers and feel the sun!!
Alas! The thought is killed before I know it.
'Trance'd back to "usual" mind-numbing, self-deteriorating Bullshit.
Within the fortress, I am the soul they slay,
I quietly accept my fate - sleep-walk through my day.


***Inspired by true story of a close friend :-)***

Lightheaded

Ever felt so light that you could just fly
Not drunk enough to know where
Yet high enough to just not wonder why.

Ever smiled so wide
Just like that, just for no reason
when there is nothing to show, and naught to hide.

Ever heard songs in your head
So loud that at one point
you have no clue what you just said.

Ever dreamed with eyes open
Dreams so clear they seem real
And you wish and pray you are never woken.

Ever known that no matter what you do it will never be alright
And so just admit it as a way of life
Yet unknowingly hope and never stop the fight.

Ever saw no escape,
except to accept what is.
And live light, smile, sing, and dream
And not ask or wonder or reason why.