Here we go again..!!

I am getting older. As yet another Birthday approaches, I know I am. It doesn’t freak me out as in “freak-me-out” but it kinda does too. Hmmmpph!! No, I actually sighed. Hmmmpph..another one!! Gawwd Am I getting older already!! Okay let me catch my breath first..yeah I am good now.

Well, its not like I am afraid of adding years. I am more concerned about all I want to do with Life and I have not started just as yet!
I wanted to be an astronaut, while I was much younger, you know, go to NASA, find out if the US moon mission was actually fake, meet with the aliens. I swear I KNOW aliens exist!! I KNOW they do, you wanna bet?
Then, I wanted to be a Paleontologist, this was after I read too many Dinosaur books and watched Jurassic park too many times. I even had a DinoScare quiz game! I can pronounce every single complicated name of their species- I do wonder though, why in Sauropodomorpha’s name would you name them thus. Whatever! I still love Dinosaurs!!
And then I wanted to be a rock star- My career almost took off when the Surd music teacher at school taught us “Siiilent night..hoooly night” and several other beauuutiful christmas carols. I even learnt how to play a bongo and hold the guitar!! Damn, I could have been the next James Blunt!
And then I almost wanted to be a basketball player. I was too tall for my age. I was told I could be a good player, if only I’d take my hands outside my trouser pockets while playing. Gawwd! It was too cold a weather to play in- Give the l’il girl a break!

Okay the list is too long and the consequences too tragical. The road has been long and winding. I don’t even know how I ended up having anything to do with the stock exchange. By the way, Has anyone seen the @#$%^& HCL ad? Gawd!! They make investment bankers look like VERY VERY dumb people!! I don’t even want to get into what people at "HCL Technology Solutions" do! We all know they do some Really neat stuff. Lets just leave it at that, shall we?

Anyways, I digressed. And I just realized how much ever I brood over it, what's gone is gone. I wish I could realize that more often, though.

I have done many things I shouldn’t have.
I haven’t done many things I should have.
I have hurt people and I shouldn’t have.
I haven’t kicked people I should have.
I have hidden from people how much I well.."Don't-really-like-them"- I sure as hell shouldn't have.
I haven’t told people how much I like them- I should have.
I have cried for the wrong people.
I have laughed at the wrong people.
I have smiled too little.
I have thanked too less.
I could have been better.
I could have been something I am not.
Except that, I could not have been something other than what I am. But each passing day, I try to get closer to what I want to be.

And I aint getting older- I am just getting wiser and umm..Older :|
But..(wait! remember "Happy(s) Ending(s)") I wont Ever stop dreaming!
I still want to own an Island Resort. Anybody willing to donate one for the right cause? Look no further- CAUSE its here( me me me !!)

Cheers!

“Simone
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone

Simone
I guess it's over
My memory plays our tune
The same old song”

Lalala..and the hangover continues!! WHERE is my aspirin??