Tuesday, September 25, 2007

For the better and for good..

I am not this sociable person that you meet all the time. I am one of the standoffish types that you would hardly want to meet and if you should know, I am not particularly proud of this. But once you know me or so they say, I am not that bad. Well, I couldn’t care less about that one either. It’s not like I abhor mankind. Maybe, it’s like there are a few people who I care about so much that I could give a rat’s ass about the others. Oh, but there are people I admire- for their guts, for their simplicity, for their attitude, for their ambitions and more. And there are people I marvel at- for being liars, backstabbers, connivers, hypocrites and even more. I prefer to be a silent observer. Not while someone’s firing at me though.

Anyways so, I am not that friendly. Period. Now today, while I was my usual self, something happened. After giving a tiring presentation, I was getting my things together to leave the class. I needed to plug out my laptop charger from a multi-point socket. I switched the common switch off and this lady in my class flipped. She says “you don’t just do that man! I had no battery and now that you switched it off my laptop is gone.” So I had a dream last night that her laptop was on the verge of a battery showdown and the very moment I would switch off the power would spell apocalypse for it. No I did not. And No I did not tell this to her either. All I did was collect my laptop with my trap shut and walked out. This is something I normally don’t do- You know; listen to BS without giving it back. Then, I was thinking all the time, for sometime, why I did not do what I did not do?

I don’t know. I have nothing against her or the likes of her. I simply don’t care enough. I would probably smile the next time I see her. Because I guess for once I wasn’t mean. And well, I got something to write in my blog :)Anyways,The whole point is that, I guess you learn to comfort yourself in ways that you could never think of.

It’s like when you do something that you normally do- you brush it aside by saying that Hey! That’s how I am! Can’t help it! And then when you don’t do something that you normally tend to do, and you surprise yourself, you say things like I said- you know, atleast for once I didn’t do that! Which means this was the one time I was like that. Next time, It’s me you’ll see.
But maybe, sometimes, and this happens rarely, you do change for the better and for good.

1 comment:

Pratyush said...

well wotver u wrote was right.thoughtful...you know we think know we ourselves..better than anything but we sometimes do stuff .....things we neva thot we wud ever do...coz it aint us....but we still do...sometimes we even suprise ourselves.and react or do somethings in a situation we wudnt have EVER done but it did happ...and as you mentioned earlier....it is sometimes for the better and some times for bad........


nice to see some one thinking alike.....